The Grief that does not speak…


“Give sorrow words; the grief that does not speak
knits up the o-er wrought heart and bids it break.”

― William Shakespeare, Macbeth

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There is no doubt in my mind that using words is therapeutic.  My blog has given me so much more than I have ever put into it.  I have met people through my blog that real life would never have introduced me to and they are all people I definitely was meant to meet.  Life is better by far for knowing them.  For knowing YOU.  I sit here in my ‘corner office’, tucked up in my bed, typing my heart out onto the internet, and people raise their hands and say “over here, Rach, me too!”.  I am heartened by the connections and community.  I am grateful for a place to explain the things that I find hard to fit into regular conversations.  I have growing optimism about my role in this life, why I am here, what it is I am to do.  Who I am, even.

Thank you so much for reading my words.

Tell me who you are, too? Many of you have stories of your own, words that have been waiting to be expressed.  Many of you have been waiting for the right time to write them.  This is your time. I would like to invite you to share some of your writing, here.  Poetry, stories, reflections, collected thoughts.  All types of writing welcome.  If you would like to share, my place is your place.  Gather your words and publish them in a comment below.

I can’t wait to read yours.

Let’s get our words together, lest the grief that does not speak knits up our o-er wrought hearts and bids them break.

Arohanui X

Taking Stock


Screen Shot 2014-05-25 at 12.54.46 pmI’m doing a course on blogging and writing (just in case you missed my many references to it).  I am loving the course and determined to do all the assignments, because you can take the girl out of girly-swot but you can’t take the swot out. Which just means (if you are not a kiwi) that I am a big fat nerd.

So here it is.  A list of what is happening in my world at the moment.  If you are a girly-swot too, who loves lists and wants one of your own, join in! I’d love to see your list, too!  I’ll add the empty list at the bottom of the post so you can copy and paste it.   Message it to me over on:
https://www.facebook.com/chronicillsofrach  or add it to the comments below.

Making: havoc of my kind

Cooking: lots of slow cooker, save-my-bacon meals for six.  But last night(!) an inspired-by-Rosie, pulled pork and noodle stiry fry with lots of fresh veggies and handfuls of coriander.   Oooooh… delish.  Even if I say so meself.

Drinking: tea!  Wanna cuppa?

Reading: Half The Sky, Let me Sing You Gentle Songs, the Dovekeepers…
(well, in truth, I’m just looking at them in my ‘to read’ pile and actually reading lots of blogs!)

Wanting: an ugg onesie.  Have they been invented yet?

Looking: at the ‘insides’ of lots of amazing heads in the blogosphere

Playing: over and over in my head,  a conversation I had recently with my doctor

Deciding: that expanding our family was the right thing to do after all

Wishing: I had enough energy for my expanded family all of the time

Enjoying: blogging with Pip and the Pipsters

Waiting: for the rugby to finish so hubster can join me in sweet slumber

Liking: (“blog crushing” on) Michelle from Living with Bob, Annette from I Give you the Verbs and Kellie van Meurs from To Russia with Hope.

Wondering: if Zed will be okay in his first TV audition next week

Loving: being challenged by my BLOG WITH PIP course!

Pondering: the sounds coming from down the road… is that joyous celebration or a fracas?

Considering: whether we should investigate that...

Watching: BBCs ‘Hunderby’… crying myself silly with laughter. It’s a spoof period drama/ comedy.  Think Jane Austen, crossed with The Young Ones.

Hoping: I will wake up in time tomorrow to wake Bee for her sunrise photography session with the other Be.

Marvelling: at the wondrous coincidences that occur in my life, all the time.  You too?

Needing: some oomph.

Smelling: Lemons from the Chilean Pisco Sours Hubster made tonight.

Wearing: Lazy Bones PJs (Australian genius in a pajama)

Following: suit.

Noticing: that my blog is a bit different to what I thought it would be. Less informative so far, more impressionistic.  What do you want more of?

Knowing: I am so lucky to have this beautiful big blended family.

Thinking: how I have always been happiest in International communities and that is why I love social media

Feeling: happy tired instead of sick tired.

Admiring: the character Bee showed at riding today when she pushed through her terror and made the jumps that she thought she couldn’t get over.

Sorting: our finances.  I’m in charge of them for the first time ever!  eeeeeek!

Buying: Star Coins for StarStable (I know.  Ridiculous.  And I am in charge of finances?  Help.)

Getting: closer to happy more often.

Disliking: NZ being so small and at the bottom of the world, so far from some of the best Dysautonomia specialists.

Opening: the doors to the things I have needed to express for a long time.

Giggling: at Hunderby’s naughty bits.

Feeling: affirmed and supported and loved by people I know and by people I haven’t even met in person. It astounding how good that feels.  I have a community.

Snacking: I’m not!  Gold star for me for the last five minutes of no snacking.  But just by the by, ‘snackage’ is quite possibly one of the loveliest types of eating. Closely followed by dessert spoon lingering.

Coveting: The writing lives of Naomi Bulger, from ‘Naomi Loves’ and Pia, from ‘Woven Words’.

Wishing: I had a magic wand.  There are lots of places I would wave that thing.

Helping: with my words. People are finding my words useful and I really love that.

Apologising: for not making links yet for all the lovely people and blogs mentioned above. That’s a bit beyond me this second. I will amend that on the morrow (check back here and get clicking)!

Hearing: a song on a loop in my head:
“Every little thing is gonna be alright” (after a little meme glued it in there).

Here’s the list.  Your turn!
Making :
Cooking :
Drinking :
Reading:
Wanting:
Looking:
Playing:
Deciding:
Wishing:
Enjoying:
Waiting:
Liking:
Wondering:
Loving:
Pondering:
Considering:
Watching:
Hoping:
Marvelling:
Needing:
Smelling:
Wearing:
Following:
Noticing:
Knowing:
Thinking:
Feeling:
Admiring:
Sorting:
Buying:
Getting:
Bookmarking:
Disliking:
Opening:
Giggling:
Feeling:
Snacking:
Coveting:
Wishing:
Helping:
Hearing: